Then in August of 2013, something happened that opened a huge can of worms as they would say.  I started working at the VA as a certified peer support and during our training we were taught to self-disclose our recovery story, and I thought there is no way that I can do that, tell my story of MST.  So, I didn't.  Who'd think that only a short time after that I started working with other men and women who had similar stories to me.  One story after another just kept on triggering me until I could no longer take it and I crashed, hard.  That brings me to where I am today.